I used to have this idea that as soon as everything was "perfect" in my life I would be happy. As soon as I had all the money I needed, as soon as everyone loved me, as soon as I was completely healthy, as soon as things were going well at work.
It's a trap. The "as soon as" trap. For no "as soon as" ever, really comes into fruition. There is always one more "as soon as".
Happiness is a choice. It's something I choose to participate in no matter what my circumstances are.
But happiness can not only be elusive in the midst of trials and adversity, happiness can be difficult to seize in the midst of the dailyness of life.
We get up, go to work, come home, watch some T.V. (or whatever it is you do to provide a distraction in your life), go to bed and sleep and then repeat the next day. It's like a scene from the movie "Groundhog day" where Bill Murray is awaken in his hotel room every morning at 6:00 A.M. to the tunes of Sonny and Cher.
On and on life goes.
The key - remain faithful. Perhaps a daily understanding of the principle that God is not so much concerned about my happiness as he is my holiness, he's not so much concerned about my circumstances as he is my character would help.
The challenge of Jesus today is not to be happy (although he does desire us to be filled with joy, peace and happiness) but to be faithful at any cost.
Just a thought.....